and in the end, it all boils down to nothing more than just apathy
This blog shall be under maintenance (like its owner).
So it shall be deemed abandoned (like my facebook).
So kindly do not check back here anymore.
(though i know only a few of you does. hur!)
So anyway, if you have photos of me saved in your com,
please please please send them to me.
NO MORE TAGGING IN FB!
goodbye.
another failure.
so far, 3 failed interviews for the positions that i really wanted.
it’s really getting me down.
and to think i thought i did so well.
but apparently not well enough.
i just feel like giving up.
if i have a chance to speak to god,
there’s only one sentence i wanna tell him.
“I think i’d suffered enough, give me a fucking break!”
baby, i know you are with me in this.
im happy for your comforting words and encouragement.
but i really dont wish to fail you, myself, my family, or anyone anymore.
another failure and i dunno what im gonna do.
i feel like crying.
I was watching Notting Hill last night,
and at the part when Julia Roberts said to Hugh Grant,
“I’m just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.”
I FUCKING CRIED.
Like omg, how fucking cliche pls!
Im such a wreck, it makes me laugh.
It’s 1pm and i wanna do something productive.
But my mind is a total blank.
Hahahaha.
Vikki, just go and die pls.
i just did a microdermal.
and i changed my vertical labret stud to the one i wanted.
and it didn’t bleed at all!
=)
oh, and my grandma slapped me cos i was being the fucked up,
full of attitude, disappointing, loserish brat that i am.
pardon the smiley face,
i should be happy but sorry, im not.
good night.
i cant stand being at home any longer.
someone find me a refuge.
People think if you love somebody hard enough,
then everything is just gonna work out.
People are wrong.
Sometimes i feel like the best part of my life,
is when i am unconscious.
I pierced my vertical labret.
Because you said you like it.
Don’t give up on me and don’t stop loving me, do you remember?
I guess not.
Goodbye.
“You know what I think hurts the most? The feeling of being replaced. It’s like no matter what you did, it wasn’t enough. And no matter what you do to try and capture their heart again, doesn’t seem to work. And you’re suddenly left thinking that you’ll never be enough. And a sudden sadness captures your heart that never really leaves.”
-Joanne Golden
